last min decision yst =) went down straight after sch to london to meet him. well it was all worth the time and effort becux today is a happy day. haa
last chance for my business internal assessment this sat. i guess i have been slacking all along and all. but i wish everything is going to be fine soon. i need to start working on my ee. is going to be due in 2.5 weeks time. i miss home i miisss sec 4 life.the life now is just so independent sometimes i cannot stand it . but i do enjoy it most of the time.i just need one more yr to be able to stay on my own. to do what i want to do in life. IB is just one stressful thing to do. i concluded.
And i have been feeling wierd with the koreans around like what temu say as if we have a tail ,diff from everyone else. haa sometimes or always i feel like they are talking even when i was walking in front of them. but who cares. haa i hope u come down this week.
oh and .. me and xy's online store finally have a name is call muÑeca with the stress on n. it means doll in spanish. haaa i miss her. i miss her hanging out at my hse and just purely slacking.
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The weekend is finally here, is not because i can go back home or meet jit or linn or just going to bicester for shopping. Since i came back to st clares all the work all just piling and piling untill i don't know what to do . i realised tt i have not done much but then again i have been over stress and tired, friday evening me and temu just stayed in our room and slept. i don't know i don't feel like clubbing shopping or anything , i feel like just mugging but i don't have the discipline yet. i am trying and trying . i guess it was just my life style of too 'easy' only now when i cannot apply to the uni tt i expected, i am starting to panic.
I finally went to ask my el teacher for help, he is quite right i did not bother abt everything, i left early and came back late i realised how much i have been slacking. for one moment i wanted to study in UWC in singapore.i guess studying everywhere is the same but then i just need to work hard. i know that i just keep saying but no action. sigh. i thought of my life i guess if i have not know jit and still with sam i will not work or think as hard as now. dunno how to explain but there is a diff definately. and my bro he got suspended from sch for 2 days over a girl. i think he is dumb but then again i guess i used to be dumber once. but i have grown 'smarter' and not tt dumb into such things anymore. but then of cux i love u la.
Roni is reallie annoyed with me with my internal assessment and my behaviour in class. i guess i have reallie disappointed her. i am feeling bad. i dun want her to give up one me. sigh
yst was definately not a good day for me, first time i cried on the phone to jit . i should not have but i love my bro too much , i got send back froom business and kevin warn me not to be late . he said if i try improvement then he will change my prediction. so i better .
although, so many unlucky things and whatever u called it, i am still happy with my life. because i have u. 2 more weeks to see u jit. kee. jitty jit jit. my froggy =)
gt to shower =)
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this week has been rather busy and constantly rushing. i dunno why what that's the way. linn came here on tue and ya. i went for lunch with her family and all. brought them to this spainish restaurant , susposed to be there with jit but then he is not here so i went there with the linn.
jitty jit jit . sorry for annoying u with my stress =) i miss my summer. dunno it seems i have nv ending work to do here in st clares, i know it but i dunno i dun have much time . i wish i dun need to slp at all , jit told me once abt not wanting to slp now i understand him. well gtg econs now. hw undone but i cann't be bother with much i need the weekend to come. got told off by roni during business
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I miss my wonderful weekend with uat least my weekend was not a waste and i realie do enjoy it =) i miss u too , well on top of tt our citizen application was approved so i got to go back to sg in a mths time lucky , i susposed to be back on the 27 but luckily i had like 10 days holidays but that's also mean i cannot visit u but i will come once before i go back =) thx for the weekend darling . and i met linn in london too although i did not have much time with her but still i hope her visit to her sch tmr is a sucess, of cux it is going to be a sucess but ya. hope it makes her day happy. wee i have linn here with me in uk too , i guess this yr in uk is going to be good? wonderful/ amazing? because u see, i have jit, linn and jenn. from singapore and temu is my room mate. and also i have lee. so i dun see a reason why i will not go to london.okie my weekend. friday- afternoon- tate musem untill 4+ then - i went for dinner with linn and talked to her and gave her nicotine. haa-8pm play ( women in black )-10:15 i met u at Earls court station and we walked back to out BBSat-breaksfast at china town then we went to oxford streets to shop and meet linn keeAnd jit is so impatient with my makeup. sorry i did nto know tt but i re
ally do spend quite long at a cosmetic counter of most the time and yup =) u will get use to it keke. then we met up with linn and we went back to selfriges to window shop , i am kind of broke this mth but i reallie want to get something a new bag maybe in oct . i think i will get more money then i shall not spend in sg and wait till nov. =) u made me pissed for awhile but not very long, then we had dinner. and london bridge, althought we went there quite late it was already 10:45 pm when we reach there, and ya we spend sometimewalking around and sitting and i was telling him abt ms ong. that was a nightmare in fact. Sunday. we had breakfast at mac and then we went to get a coach back to oxford, the journey was long at we were in oxford only at 2 . kee. and yup rather late and all. but it was already he got to see abit abt oxford and all. we had light dimsum and all. went to chinese supermart then we went back to get everything and send him to the ttrain station. well nice weekend there will be another one in a mth time. kee. =)
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well, i had a bad week this week, endless hw and finally i get to slp last night without worrying tt i will not be able to hand in my hw the nx day. It had been a reallie busy week , i know this is just the begining of IB2 well.
and i realised that my predicted scores are damm lousy , sigh sigh sigh . so stef is time for u to wake up now . hopefully this is not too late for everything. Roni's word actually made me realised a few things, she is in fact right that my work are slacking from last term and i have not change, toni commented the same but then as for english it has always been the same . wake up stef wake up. if i continue i am just wasting the damm money here , i know in sg i use to be like this but then the sch fees were free but now i pay 50% more a yr than what an average income earns in uk. according to my econ teacher that is the figure. i have decided tt i am just going to study nx week. no more clubbing for the time being and out with the rest. my life here will be just occasion dinner with the chinese , most of the time with temu and free time for jit and gym, i need to lose weight too.
yst , u finally told me the word i wld like to here from u, ' it think i dun know u anymore stef ' yesh yesh, in fact u don't know me anymore, i change quite alot over this one yr here . in fact i dunno him anymore too. he is into music and i hv nv seen this side of him b4 in the past 5 yrs. haaa see how life is so wonderful and amazing , therefore it concluded that u will nv know one person everything for all their lives.
Weekend in london start today =) i am seeing u kee.
i don't know what he reallie trying to tell me but all i can say is , is all over i hv move on from it and i am happy with my life. well maybe i think a little too much but then the lyrics of the song he send seems like everything he owe me mths ago. but i guess is actually too late for him to try and change everything now.just like what temu say i shld not care abt pple who once dun appreciate me. and he is not the only one. the whoever guy in my school , is kind of obivious he is trying to get my attention once again but nv did he realised i am not the girl easily flattered by him anymore. well we did not end up together for a reason. well well.
i am pile with work sigh, hopefully this week i will finish all my work so tt i can do my extended essay soon. or start soon sigh. i know this yr, sch work are just going to get even more and more is nv going to be a relax yr for me anymore. well stef welcome to their J2 life. but i know i will be out of it in a flash of sec.
And finally some happy things to think abt it, my 'owl ' is flying back to uk today , yay, at last we don't hv the 7 hr time diff with sux. becux it made him lack of sleep and me?? not reallie becux my midnight he will still be sleeping like a piggy hah. well. tt's why i say life has been good on my side though i am still alcking of my slp , london london london. cann't wait to walk down oxford cirucs with u although is no longer the sg cab and oleander swimming pool but we will find something diff here. and jit u are the only one i care now. i mean 'guy' is still do care abt my family and frenx but not any other guys around. oh and linny is coming today too and she is reaching today a day earlier than jit.so 2 happy things are happening now. i rem the last time i shop with her in london and finally she is coming over at last i have someone who knows me well enough is close to me. if only yang cand and rach can be here. boo!
my room is so comfy and hommy. well is all temu and my effort. hhaaa i am so used to her lifestyle and she is to mine too. is as if i have a single but having a fren with u is always good haa. =) i need to get some rest b4 sch starts in 4 hrs and i still got to go for bloodtest
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life is full of funny and wierd things that weveords cannot describe. i seriously don't know how to describe whatever i am feeling right now. sad?? happy?? i dunno or maybe just mixed.
If we just keep looking back at the past mistakes tt we made , i guess we will nv move on and achieve a much greater steps in life. I thought abt ij days and suddenly i realised how many pple actually walk in and out of my life and now some i dun even keep in contact with . lets say ata. used to be rather close to her in sec 3 then now we dun talk anymore. i think pri sch fren are even further apart , but i still do hv jenn and sammie. clarence and edwin had long left my life although they made up most of my p6 life , i rem talking to them every day on the phone , but ya . and sec 1-4 all i can say lots of pple came in and went out.
all in all the drastic change happy 2 mths ago of cux . and i have accepted it although i am not fully there yet. i am trying and happy and willing to. haa .
shit shit shit i am dead
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i am back here for almost a week. i was kind of surprise at how fast i took to re adjust back into st clares's life. the next afternoon i was walking around city centre n summertown doing the same routine i used to go earlier this yr. the summer was a great fun . now i got to put my mind set into study . well ya . i am trying and trying
this week has been a busy week for me. firstly, i have got so many hw not done and the last weekend i got to make a trip back to solihull becux my laptop crash and i got to get one brand new one under my aunt's name so tt i can pay much later . =) and ya i got a sony one. and the price is rather cheap i must say. kee. and is not a bad laptop i realised how the price of laptop has decrease over the yrs. just 4 more days and i get to see u. i reallie looking forward . and i miss u reallie i miss every single things we did in sg. although i am still seeing u in london but the memories of sg will always be the best.
And finally this weekend i am doing to see u , i have booked everything the trains and the accomodation. haaa and we gonna have a wonderful time in london =)
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i hv arrived at st clares for almost a day well now i am up at 5am doing nothing in fact jo was right tt i will wake up at wierd timing kee. well well well . yst
i arrived at st clares around 10 and start unpacking my stuff, it was wed so normally on wed the timming are rather lax. all i had was maths, xiao hui and PSHE.
And despite being tired i volunteered to bring the new chinese student to the police to reg. will the rest of them had done their part to intro oxford to the new students. i cann't speak fluent so i shall do tt. my vodafone is not working yet sigh. but i guess i will go it soon. after all i still need a number...
this entry was continued from yst. wel today i had 5 hrs of lessons so in fact i have been to most of my lessons and seen most of the teachers except for the fact tt i don't know who my PT is . nd i have decided to drop my maths to standard because i want to get into LSE and Warwick. u see.. i need the freaking 36 points. and i can no longer apply to oxbridge now. becux i dun have the grades. but ya. oh and
jit.--> i am happy tt u have clear off all the scares and worries well. dun do anymore stupid things heh. i miss u =)
yang--> i miss u too . i miss calling u almost every morning to wake u up , either to meet me or u had exams . haa. this girl here can reallie sleep alot
Linn--> i cann't wait to see u in london babe. 14 is just one more week i will try to make it to u tt weekend. =) dun do funny things alot
cand--> did n't have much time with u.. but take care k.
jamie, kim n dong --> i love u guys and i miss HS . the banner was reallie sweet and thx for sending mee off.
michie --> i will use the ear rings and the nail polish. hot pink babe, my fav nail colour kee. meet up more during dec
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I MISS YOU =)is that big enough, i miss everything we do. okie i also dun want to let to dua tao also keke. come back soon and 22 ndddddddddddddddd.. well i am back in oxford in st clares life is just so fast =) i miss everyone i cannot ask xy to come down to town anymore sigh i miss those slacking days..
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jit: darl i know u will see this one day, maybe in abt 1 or 2 days time. well i know both of us are trying and noone expected such thing to happen . i admit that i am kind of disappointed ,tt u don't have much time to spend with me before i leave. but i really understand yr fear and all. i know u are reallie scared, well, and i know if we want to progress deeper into this r/s we got to solve this matter in front of us, hopefully everything will be fine by the 22nd when u come to oxford to meet me. In fact i am as afraid as u , i dun want to lose u, i dun want the happiness i have right now to last just for this summer. and of cux i dun want anything to happen to u.
well.. is the last night i have in sg , i am reallie amaze at how thing changes and all , in fact i nv expect myself to get into a r/s so soon , but now i find myself getting involve in another r/s .life is just so amazing and unpredictable . we nv know the person u randomly met cld be the one u consider to be part of yr life. this hols would not have been a bliss without xinyang reallie. i see her at least 4 to 5 times a week. and ya, o reallie appriciate everything we go this summer, from the chalet, to clubbing , shisha, shopping, chinatown , fagging, movies, slacking, fire works, sneaking out,studying and stayovers. everything.
i still rem meeting josh and jeff , this 2 american guy, we were so afraid they will do something to us cux all i can see on their face was SEX well . but in the end we manage to leave and go serparate ways =) and diff diff occasions. abt yang vomitting at the stair outside gotham. and just 2 of us smoking shisha at the sahara . everythings , u made my hols a bliss.
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2 more days and i am leaving this place , i am feeling kind of sad but then life got to go on. my studies in st clares' canot be neglected therefore i hv got no choice but to get back to uk on time. well things have been pretty good btw us, i dun reallie want to say anymore btw us, just tt there is still a confusion inside me, i will get over it soon i believe just give me one more mth and i will be done.
today.
morning i was with jit , then he send me back and i met yang to highlight my hair , i love my new hair colour , thanks yang =) got it at a bargain. then we were walking around north point and i bought something tt i can gif to jit well i hope it is going to be sweet for us. and at last we met my bro to go to newton to have crab, stingray, kangkong, la la and chicken wings. i know is alot of food for just 3 of us . keke but i enjoyed the dinner i love u all despite someone did not turn up again. well well . i expected it. and my dear bro . yesh yesh u will always be above jit no matter what , u are my one and only dear bro. and i believe i am above all the girls in yr life. heh. dinner was good. thou i did not get the right stall for the food.
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