last night ladies night would be the last night in sg . this summer i think i only miss 2 ladies night or one. i cann't reallie rem but ya. oh wel. i am going to miss these night out when i am in uk. but i got to set my pirioty first see i got to get my result so yup. actually i am going to miss everything tt happen this summer. of cux the most 2 amazing thing tt happen this summer wld be xy's accompany and jit. xy. u has been a reallie there for me through the whole summer .luv u girl . and ya last night sneaking her out was so scary can it was like pass mid night and i was sneaking her out of her hse i was practically waiting for her outside and i was talking to jit.
haa.. to u: dunno when i will give u my blog add to let u read maybe in a weeks time when i am back in uk and i want u to know what i am doing.
well. i am happy with the way we are now. and u have beeen a sweetie pie. i thought i will not be able to open up to another person anymore untill i met u. =)
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i cann't understand this world anymore, seriously. it can be rather racist and discrimination sometimes. like how they like their own race is the best. but this is the 21st century and yup. i am facing this whole thing abt traditional thing now. i really wish jit can share abit with me but i dunno how i am going to break this news to him. i want to be with him and i dun want him to think too much be disturb by whatever is happening to me right now. it call started with him sending me to airport and my mum found out.
ok! now i am not dating a chinese but let's put it this way is not every chinese guy is good. there are so many of them labeled the sme as everyone, the floor pple who just have no will power to strive. so ya . and futhermore i am happy with jit and jit is happy with me right now. and we just started. she was practically screaming at me on the car on the way back.. fu**. ok! u said,: you add stress to my even stress situation and just for yr own happiness u make me stress. is not as if i am not stress were u even there when i am stress. but i am always there for u and in the end yr stress became mine. i am doing all these because u are my mum and i love u . but now u say such a word i reallie feel hurt and wanna break down. to me u are always someone who understand and let me do whatever i want that's why i told u abt jit. i did not tell u to break us up. i know the concequences myself, but for now just let me be doing what i think it make me happier and work harder. all i can promise is he will not led me astray but make me more discipline. so . jit i need to see u. dinner is too long but i guess tt will be the only time we can meet. well i want to get back to uk. and just study and study. hope jit is not like sam when i need him most he is nowhere to be found.
one step closer to u =)
i am in china right now. but i am going back this evening well. been here 3 days and this time i did not shop alot. just bought some neclaces and belts, socks and studs. well trying to get something for jit. now i can be sure myself i am with him and feel tt i am with him. we are talking more and sweet . even when i am in china i am calling him in fact he calls me more =)
just now we said something tt makes us think.. what if someone ask in future how did we meet.. we were like . erm u do the talking haa.. cux we started not too proper. cann't wait to see him. i nv tell him this but i do miss him here. kee. but i be seeing him in less than 12 hr cux he is fetching me from airport. kee.
and a real SURPRISE for me.. linn is back in sg. she is back today so i only get to see her like tmr. but still i get to see her although i will be seeing her again in uk . sweet. linn i miss u and i want to talk to u.. and jamie.. i will stay over on night during yr sept hols. k. i got to get back to work. before mum scold me for not doing anything
one step closer to u =)
last night clubbing was great=) went to momo at first cux of free entry and free drinks but the crowd and the music sux, is the ah lian and the ah beng kind of crowd. and the music is like no remix one they just play the full song. or we left momo to MOS which was so so much better, haa. well gotham drinks is so much better i must tell u =) but i made yang flare yst hee. sorry. i was abit distratced by the phone call and make up. well but the dinner at the river side was good , the breeze blowing agaist out faces and the atmosphere haa. then we went to sahara again for shisha, had apple flavour this time. =) then my cousin came to meet us . jit offer to send me down to meet xy then drive us down to clarke quay . hee. well ya is like , we were on the phone then he ask when i meeting xy then i say now. or in 5 mins then he say: i at grandma's place. aye can send u down. haa. sweet . so i get to see him one extra day exactly he was susposed to comedown my hse at 6 to accompany me bt then he fall asleep. so he came over today after dinner.
the dinner was good meh. since sam for almost a yr i have not had much of dinning. now with him is even more proper dinning at restaurant and hotels. well so is kind of fun and ya. we had mah la hou gou tt day , thai today at amara hotel, then viet at CHIJmes on sat., the auth jap .. then. newton.. burmese. and i want clark quey heeh. well well i think by then we should be back in uk already. i know he want his brasilian . so got to find someday for it. and spanish but uk spanish is much better la tapaz. hee. so i guess european food like french , italian and all we will do it in uk.
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yst was a shit day cux. i just realised that my booking back to uk was cancel. damm so now i am officially one week late for sch and i dun reallie want tt to happen but i have got no choice sigh. i guess is my fault but not totally my fault the person who did it for me did not reallie exams the terms tt i have to instruct them to issue my tic. although staying here a week longer means tt i have more time for everyone but , imagine the amt of work i got to each up in sch. it is just horrible sigh.
well jit was sweet. sorry dear, i know u believe tt i shld fight my way through but sometime i just don't want to make it harsh for pple and i am partially at fault. i know u care for me tt why u were kind of worked out but =) is over.
and asked him yst where he wld be haa. then i said i will not be there cux i dun reallie want to bump into he and his frenx and all kee. i know there maybe some other things tt came across yr mind but then again if i am seeing u , u can assure that i will not make out with anyone i meet tonight. so yup =) but boo tt means tt i cannot go to gotham to drink. sigh. actually tt is where we met. haha. things has been pretty good btw us these days. shld say life has been easier for me , got mne appointment at 1:30 , it was at 12 but i missed it so i changed the timing. and and i will be heading to china this sat. wee finally get to see everyone.
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I just read rach's blog well i totally understand how she feel cux i am feeling the same too just that i guess i can demand a lil but more from him . but then again just as how rach say , i also cannot expect anything from him becux i am not in the position right now. i want to go to chalet with him.=) dunno what he will say i know he is sending me off the airport this sat . sweet sweet . yst he was like who is sending u to the airport on sat.i said no onw then i ask , why u want to send me off izzit , he said . ya i dunch mind. is just the lil things tt u do tt make me feel sweet and touch and tt is how i feel closer to u everyday.
rachie: hey babe. i hope everything is going to be fine for u soon. all guys are bastard some how. they are a bunch of unsensitive creature who does not understand what we girl need and feel. well ya jit is the same most of the time. so dun think so much and ya i also have learn not to expect too much from guys, smetime lil surprises will make u feel much happy when u dun expect them.. so take it easy luv u text me soon babe.
10 things i need to do before OCT.
1. extended essay
2. internal assessment
3. phy to standard 6
4. maths to 6
5. Prediction to 38. =)
6. Go to China soonnnn to see everyone
7. Find a job
8. Set up online store
9. work things out with jit
10. interest in reading
why is things just not falling in place. i hate it! just becux i forgot to do something this morning. and ya everytime i am trying my best to sve something but must everyone keep asking and asking and say they will put in back in 2 days.. i need a freaking sum in 2 weeks. how am i going to save in when u just keep asking me to pay and pay for this and tt. i did so much for u dunch u think is enuff why are u just not satisfied.. Jit where are u?? Why can i not tell u all these, why cann't i have the guts to dail yr number , i am just so afraid i will disturb u. well ya. in the end is my own probs. but at least i used to have sam to support me though last time, but now i am just all left alone with even bigger responsibility. sigh.. 2 weeks .. 2 weeks how many shippment can arrive in 2 weeks. not much the most another 300 pieces. tt will not help at all.
ok happy things.. had mah la hou gou yst with him. yup is just something diff tt we do , i will late for 20 mins and he was early for half and hours so poor boy got to wait quite long. heh. but the food was good and the accompany was good too of cux. =)
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Yst was not a good day for me definately, well yup i almost ended everything tt was going on, okie. firstly i was already not very happy with the attention i got from him and then to add on to that he missed our date , it was freaking 4 pm and i still cld not get hold of him when we were susposed to meet at 2pm so ya i was freaking pissed and my poor mum and everyone around me was like dun dare to comment on anything and they thought tt i was just simply stressed out and mood swing. ya ya jit it was all yr fault can haa.
so i took MRT down to woodland and met xy to ease my temper and everythings and then i thought of trying one last time b4 i gave it off, so i called his hse and there.. he told me he lost his phone , it was damm shit thou but then i was alright after tt. he told me he was abt to do down to my hse to ask for my number , i dunno how true but it did help me feel better .yup we met for movie in the end at 8 then ya we said we will find some place to talk but only for like 15 mins but in the end we talked for more than 1 hr guess we just cann't get enough of each other when we start the conversation haa.
yup yup things got much much better after we talked and at least last night was the first time i showed him tt i care for this r/s and ya. guess is the first time i actually demand something from him and he said this. hope u do demand more in future. haaa. yup yup when i feel closer to u i will, and so everything is fine btw us but his probs with some girl is getting worst. apprently this girl like him but then he told her things are not going to work out but then she is making things worst. dunno whether i shld be affected but now all i feel is nuthing towards this issue but in fact happy cux he was honest with me. i know he dun tell me the full story and i dun need to ask him, i like him to have his own privacy , he will tell me when he thinks is right.
*mah la hou gou tonight. with jit of cux. we definately need to spend some times together if we want this to work out. to be honest i still feel a dist btw us. well now i am waiting for that xy to get her foot step on tpy ground so tt we can do and study b4 i meet him =)
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well. guess we just need to restructure our life, i cann't live life the way it has been and i know it realie sux. just like last night i was thinking i shld not be in anything tt i dun see anything happeninf or anything . you said u want me to demand things from u then u got make me feel that i can demand and depend on u sometimes. but last night stuff made me thought of somethings. i told u i may seems too cool abt everything becux i feel that i am not in the position to demand anything from u yet cux it is going to be unfair if ever i decided tt things are not going to work out. is actually not something good coming out from me. and i think we should take a step back from now. i shld not treat us are we are seein eachother when i am still having doubts abt us working out in the future. so from today on. even though we are seeing each other , we will just be at friends level where i will not text u or anything and we will just talk at night. so please dun make me feel i am diff in yr life if u cann't give me the enough attention i need from u. i understand what u mean by the not responding to me sms but it does not make me feel any better by saying tt. ya is true we are meeting tmr and monday, we are meeting more but tt is not reallie what i want from u , i want you to give me more attention. tt's all i am asking. sometimes i wish u found my blog and read abt such things becux. everytime i talk to u over the phone i am speechless. every entry . my views abt us is diff becux everyday i feel diff abt this r/s guess i am just thinking too much abt it, is just 3 weeks. well i should just ignore but when i start to ignore it means everything is ending in my mind and it gives my final stand .
my worries NOW !!
1. Predicted grades
2. Extended Essay
3. Internal assessment
4. Phy/ maths
5. JIT
last night spend quite sometime with jit and ya i am glad we did becux we seriously need to do something to this r/s with we reallie want to make things work. the earlier part of it was kind of bad, i was kind of dissapointed becux ya. we went of movie and having not seen him for like 4 days i felt like an stranger and not his gf. ok we are seeing each other but we need time to reallie move into BGR . but then after tt we had sometime of ourself talking , well i guess these talks help and i can see he is reallie trying to work things out. and i know i shld give him a fair chance to let him come into my life but i need time, it took me sometime to get sam out of my life and i need to readjust my mind and emotion to do it i guess.
our r/s is reverse i know and ya there are somethings he said last nights tt once touched me again, we was like think we shld meet more often and all. we shld go out for proper dates and know each other in 3 weeks. and ya i am glad he is not asking for anything more then tt. heh. all in all i am happy i knew him. cann't reallie say happily in love yet, still dun feel it at the moment of love. love takes time, and need time.. well well. and ya linn got STRAIGHT As for her A LEVEL congrates babe. we are all proud of u . =) love u. u are my motivator . muackx
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i thought i have grown up. i thought i cld made my own decision . as in i am reallie happy abt the way my life is right now. the freedom i lead. i guess one yr in uk reallie change my perception of life. i am still fighting for my own independent. and i want it the only way i can do is to prove my mum tt i am not tt little girl anymore. as in i know she has been much much liber in my upbring comparing to most of my fren'x parent but still i am diff i guess . i cannot stand what pple try yo ask me to do i like to make my own decision. i am sorry but i know this is the way u brought me up and since i have became to lead an independent life due to yr busy carrer to cannot come and control into my life at age 19 . i respect and i love u , i nv ever say anywords or do anything tt hurt u. but that does not made u control me . u have given me everything as in i can stay over , go out late. financial wise i can spend whatever but i have my own limit. but tt is not enough if u have given me such independent since so many yrs ago. now u suddenly want to interfer with my decision making me reallie stressful and i cannot suddenly accept the fact.
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guess everyone has got their own perception of life. i do have mine too. i see what most beautiful abt someone is the quality and the way she/he carry themselves. but too bad this world is all abt materialistic and superficial. i admit tt i am superficial and materialistic to certain extend but i do draw a line to where i shld stop. life is not always owning the most number of branded goods. these stuff can only aid u in bringing up yr status but does not help u to become a happier person. happier person, i live in 2 diff world , a world where i feel myself as 19 and another world where i feel tt i am 25 . is funny but that is what i live for , is not tt i am willing to lead this kind of life but somehow i am customed to or just very zhi ren kind of thing. but tt does not make me an unhappy person. last night's talk with linn was kind of useful. i realised all the unnecessary worrys and goals tt i want to achieve in life but i nv used to feel that those were only secondary part of my life untill something jit mention to be tt day tt made me realised everything abt life. well these 2 weeks knowing jit has been pretty much diff i must say, but the r/s we are in right now is pretty diff. we are seeing each other but i still need a long long time to actually feel tt i am attach to him. well everyone is beautiful if they have a beauiful soul , life is short just make full use of it and we will be much happier. to be honest i dun see anylight in whatever situation i am in right now. but i hv 3 more weeks to prove myself. let's just take it slow.
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i guess i am happy with the way i am right now. althought i reallie wish i am 10 kg skinnier. but ya. i will take it slowly now. well my r/s with jit has been pretty good except for the fact abt my mum's disapprove. i reallie hope one day she cld change her mind abt him and everything but for now. i shall not tell her much . is not tt i want to hide from her but i dun want her to have unnecesssary worries. i love her and i dun want her to be unhappy.
the things btw me and jit is a much mature level is like. we dun sweet talk, we dun call each other like what young couples do. as in we care for each other and i guess we like each other not becux of the way we look but the way we are. is just kind of diff thing and i think this type is much better. it does not affect my life and studies and eerything but we do ya.. as in he will call me during lunch and at night after we are done with abt work. well i am glad i hv someone there and since we got together things have been pretty diff from being causal. i know he is trying his best and ya. but for now. is my mum just hope she understand whatever i am doing i am not tt little sec sch kid anymore she got to know tt.
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well everything else is fine. i have accepted the fact abt the our only 12+ hr. so ya. but then yst he called me while he was driving to talk to me and he ask me yst if i can spend more time with him nx week will we leave for uk. well yup. tt was what i wanted all along and ya. and today we did not talked or sms much but as long as i know he try to talk to be. called during lunch break. and although he say 12 + today again. but i dunn if he will still be wake then . just see how i hopw so. but my mum sms kind of made me feel depress over how she asking me to draw my line and she is worried. all my hopes abt them meeting are all gone. boo. i got to see jamie darl today and ya we went bro shopping and everything. i am so jealous of her boob. sigh. and ya we talked lots abt S** as usual and ya. well sat night maybe staying over at her place if the rest can make it =)
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ming: i am glad and reallie happie abt the blessing i got from u. well i think tt is the best thing that i cld get from anyone.even if 1000 frenx came to say like good luck and everything, a a simple bless from u can over ride all of their. the chapter for us had closed and i am walking my new chapter with jit. i reallie hope one day u can call me to tell me all abt this wonderful girl u have known just like how i met jit. 4.5 yrs is pretty but is not forever, as long as we try we wil get better return. it is a turning point of me and i hope u will meet yrs soon and i am still hoping for the day u are ready to meet me as a proper fren. thankx for everything.
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jit. jit. he just text me saying he will me at 12+ sweet. i know is nothing for most relation but ours we five pirioty to our life and study. not so muck abt life but sch work. he is a reallie serious person so yup. so doing something like this btw work is kind of sweet to me. =) went out with my pri sch frens today again. well i had a nice time trying on new clothes and i realised tt i have a few things tt i reallie wanted to get. hee but i got to wait a little bit mre when i am loser with the cash flow. well. i did my manicure today i must say the nail art was done pretty well and the price i paid was worth it. it took reallie long time. like 1.5 hrs so ya. after that we went to vila GE the old marche for dinner. and went down to indoor stadium with xy. =) although we did not get to watch the match but we saw chuck and at least i did something for my mum. work work. i am doing to read through a bit of my phy at 12 before he call me. cux i kind of promise i will do some phy today. =) i am feeling deeper for u everyday and i hope this will build on . on our both side.
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yst was probably one of those days in the summer tt i enjoyed most. well i still miss those days when linn and rach were here in town. jit is amazing. i am sorry if i have made u feel disturb with things i have said but i think yst the talk we had worked for both of us.
for the past few days i have just been wondering why he would want to go for a relationship with me. when everything was stated as causal from the begining. i have not met any guy who is like like him ya so i thought he wasn't reallie serious abt everything. i am sorry tt i have been rather closed up with u these days ya. but i guess i have overcome the fear i have all along. abt sam lee or abt everything. i just hope my previous r/s with sam lee would not affect anythings btw us. =) and yup. i am glad u told yr fren abt us . that's mean u take this serious and not for this 3 weeks. and ya. i met his frenx yst and mel is reallie cool. she was like.. do u club.. nx time club together cux everytime , she is like the only girl with all the guys. and now i can join them. haa. sweet. well yup. and ya. i bought a 200Gb external hard drive. yst and ya. he is sweet he carried it with him. cux is heavy and he will bring it to my place the nx time he comes over. =)
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wells. jit is treating me more concern with everything well. yup after all he is y bf but somehow i dunno why i think thinks are moving too fast btw us tt it is so wierd for me to say him as my bf. i guess i reallie need time to accept. i do like him and miss him and have him on my mind. this relation is kind of a challenge for me cux he stays in leeds and i stay in oxford. and we will not be seeing each other often oh well. but i guess i will try to see him at least once every mth. 3.5 hr by train is not tt great after all. friday evening to sun evening. 2 days with him. but we dun have much time for each other either. i got my final IB and he is in his 3rd yr. so yup. well we will trying to get into london . i know is abit too early to say such things but i know he do plan and i am still in wonders.
sometimes i reallie admire him. he had so many flings and we started with fling. but wonder why he chose to settle with me and going into relationship. damm disciplain most of the time. so ya. he only have time for me after 12:30 at night . just before he slp. he was sweet last night still called me even though he was reallie tired from his intership in the day and studying at night. me: u sound reallie tired , do u want to go slp
he: ya i am , but i know if i say i am tired and go slp u will kill me right?
so sweet so in the end he talked to me for half an hour like this then i let him go slpp. well ya. i dun want a r/s with me and sam. nv plan for anythings. and dependent on each other too much. i think this is cool.
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yst was national day and ya. went to woodlands to study with xy and then we went to esplanade to watch fireworks. but we were late so we did not manage to watch the fire works . but we got down to exprience the crowd and atmospher. which was kind of shit. well jit wanted to meet me later so ya. so we ( cand, xy and me) weere at starbucks talking abt 2/3 . basically everyone in the class n out impression of them . of cux at the mean time i was waiting for jit to come. he was kind of late nt late cux he nv exactcally tells me when he was coming so he came around 10. but then we did not hang out very long in town becux i was reallie tired and sick so he send me back. okie. 1st time he met the pple in my hse but then again not my mum. my mum's staff.. bro haa soonner or later they will know tt i am with someonelse other than sam...
ya and he asked me last night , what are we now and i said i dunno. he asked like together?? so kind of got official together yst. is wierd but then i think it will last longer than fling see we nv know how thngs are going to be over there at uk. we stay so far away from each other and we will only get to meet like 2-3 weeks once . okie. i know i got to travel up sometimes too i cnanot always ask him come down to london . and we have to get out pirioty right tooo. actually he is rather disciplain so i believe when he say he will push me , he will do hs job. =) he is such a sweetie pie. i wanna see him soon. boo
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well life has been so much better these 2 days. other than me catching a cold. my mummy xinyang brought me to see doc yst cux i dun reallie want to reallie get sick so i went to see the doc immedialy. ya i am not pissed with Jit anymore and we are doing fine now. well. we are doing fine as frenx up i dunno reallie see anything going on except for the fact we are talking, meeting, oppo SDing and all. yst, he ask if still want to continue in london well . i dun reallie know the ans to tt. we shall see how things go.
i see my purpose in life now. i need to get to LSE and then need to lose weight. sometime i feel kind funny but then again. ya uni application is my pirioty now. i must say so yup. went chinatown hunting for bargin stuff yst with cand and yang. too bad i was freaking tired so did not enjoy much. =) gtg to bank with mummy.
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last i was kind of pissed with Jit . ok i know he got his rights to choose where he want to go but if wanted to be with his friends he should not have ask me out. ok whatever. last night i told cand tt actually there is no wrong and right between both of us becux he is not anything to me and i am not anything to me . but we are kind of seeing each other no status no commitment no string attach. well well ya. so i know i have no rights to be angry with him over anything things at all.
but truely he was abit over to do tt. then he msg me sorry. i could not be much accommodating. hope u are not pissed . see what can i ans right all i can say is no i am not pissed i am cool. mum is already sleeping so i went over to cand hse to vent my anger.
well cand mum thought i was her gf. funny i knew cand since like sec 1 and the parents knew me since then. feel kind of bad also i just wanted to rah and all. i dunno how long i can continue this form of things. well well. i think i will just blow up one day when i reach my limit of torlerence. okie he called me back at 2am to check if i was alright when i was eating yong tau fu with cand. it was good and thx everyone last night to listen to me.. cand .xy. and linn haa there are always the one and the only pple whole knew the whole story . rach i wish i cld tell u but u are busy . i nv exclude u k. luv u babe.
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i am shit confuse someone please help me. i dunno i think things are so fast is like i also dunno . things happen in just a flash of time. well Jit was reallie nice yst was talking to him like aroun 12 then he could not reallie hear me so he say he would come down to my hse here to chill. at first i find it kind of wierd but then we were talking at the pool side so ya. he was like i just wanted to talk to u and i could not hear u clearly over the phone so i came down. sweet but then again i asked myself how much do i actually know this guy , in fact i dun know him much . we talked and just sit there till real like around like 4 . then went hm.. ya out of SD so yup. well n i guess i will be seeing him till we both leave i dunno why i wanted it at that point but now i find it kind of wierd to imagine him in my life for 1 mth. well i guess seeing him more will make me feel better i hope so. so ya. seeing him tonight again . cand will be coming i hope she can make it. love i am damm late i need to open an acc with HSBC
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yst , in the noon time i was at national lib with xy to study it was quite a productive day for me but not reallie xy. well yup. then we went to eat ren ren da xian mian. i was reallie good and then we went back to touch up make up and change to club again. too bad yang had to leave by 11 am.
last night was reallie great, club with my cousin and she is reallie a party animal. i cannot rem how many dancing partner she change last night. haa well hope she reallie enjoy herself last night cux i did enjoy myself last night. well all thankx to her . i met Jit he is such a sweetie pie but i know things are not the way it seems it should be . he is just another fling and all . but unless i get to know him much better but i doubt so. i regret the drinking part last night. i was mentally clear but i cannot control my movement. just like xy tt day. cann't walked properbly lucky Jit was there . he was looking after me despite i knew him only few hrs then. i feel so protected when he was holdinng me and all. too bad too bad he is not my bf and he will nv be. now i understand when u are tipsy u dun care much abt what is happening around u. i know last night we were PDA pple were around us cheering but cann't rem much .
At least he was much better than ADI is like we actuually sit and chat for quite long. my cousin was so worry for me. she thought i was drunk and will do stupid things
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everytime my mum is back i don't get my slp. sometimes i dunno why but ya. i had a talk with xy over something yst . dun reallie want to say . luckily i had her or else i will not have made up my mind.
baby: i think u will read this . so sorry last night i could not talk to u , but i will find time and all. i know u are going through shit and u are reallie tired of waiting for something tt u think is able to work out. it must have been hard on u . well i guess u got to learn to gif up part of yr hope and move yr priority to something else. i reallie wish i can be there in london with u. so tt i can walk through this with u. well but i have got some stuff not settle here and i cannot leave now.. but will be back a week b4 our sch start. boo! did not get orientation if not i can have fun with u together . rem yr promise. =) love u.
well. read xinyang's blog and i agree with her to i should not care what others would say abt me. or abt us. just like what i told nic yst. it does not means tt u are bad if u smoke or drink or piercing all over or getting laid around. but most impt is the inner beauty and i believe all of us have. but others judge us and view us is diff. smoking and drinking is a way for destress and kil time. i dun shit care whoever read this one anymore. u can be the perfect shu nu, perfect everything. pure virgin. and pretty and all but someone who is ugly at heart is just like this. she will have frenx now but in later partshe will start losing one by one. i treasure frenx by who they are and not what i want them to be. u dun have to be rich or pretty. as long as u dun back stab or take advantage of me.
well talking abt back stabbing it has been a long time since i seen or exprience one. but abt taking advantage i gets it all the time. well my logic is u can try to get little advantage of me if it does not hurt me i will allow u. make someone happy a day is always better but my impression of u is totally change i will not look out for u in future and i will move away from u. uk is all abt these becux the community i am in is all abt rich and whatever. they are so use to pple helping them do things or pple sucking up to them. but whatever. it takes so long to fliter the good from the bad. i am not saying i am perfect or what but at least i dun take frenx for granded.
is kind of so surprising how the our 2/3 grp is still so close . i just we learn to appreciate who we are and no matter what happen to anyone of us we will be there for each other. despite the fact that we are all everywhere. we still stay in touch. each of us have our own stories but we have something in common.
* we are getting too close tt makes me so afraid but i am happy the way we are. i dun want to move anything from where we are cux i know things will be diff if we are together. at least i treasure the friendship . and i reallie do . but i should always be prepare tt things are not going to be the same after i leave . we stay in 2 diff parts of the world.
my rooms after xy clean it
i know tt every happy things will always end one day, life has been a bliss for me for this summer. although am single but i have nv been so happy being single since jan well. i guess the credit goes to pple around me. yang has been always there for me this holidays. like tt day we met josh and jeff, well yup. we had a long talk beside the pool and finaaly went up to slp at around 5 . i guess life is like this and reallie glad i have u guys. of cux my new found fren nic has als make my holiday wonderful. oh well since we met we have been talking more , well i am kind of afraid tt out friendship will be gone after i go back when i do not tt much time to talk and on the phone. and when he is attach and i am attach things will also be diff. ya well . but he helped me get throught the transitional period. although i must admit i am still in it but is no longer like last time when at nights i cann't slp and all. thank nic. i will supple yr chivas. =) DFS one hee
sch is starting again in a mth and i am kind of excited. sometimes i reallie wish i could bring all my frens over there . life would be so perfect. well as my close frens know i want to have a diff life there i dunch reallie know how but just diff. As for ADI nic is right i should love myself , i should not regret later well but i guess i will still see him for sometimes but not going to let anything happen . han gou ren . i think if ever he is interested i wld be happie but i can live without it. cux ya. i miss temu too well. i hope she is coping fine with eba in london. i dun want to see her sad. miss her. linn i know yr result is going to be out. believe me u will do well baby. i hope to see u in london =) rachie. thx for the ssms.. i still miss u so. nx summer i will visit u . yang i see u more than any1 so i dun think i have anything to say. yvt. sorry babe i miss the dinner . HS - i haven see u guys meet up one day. michie - hope we go out more nx summer after As . vera too. cand - dun get too horny. i dun think she will see this thou haa
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