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Thursday, May 25, 2006

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I slept at 6am last night but now i am perfectly awake.. cux yup. i am trying to adjust my sleeing time to the afternoon 5 to 9. this will help me concentrade better. heee.. well. i did quite a bit last night but only finish econs. fixed and floating exchange rate. i had productive morning , econs was bad cux i was half asleep but by maths i am awake , red bull take at least 1 hr to react. that is for me lah. then 2 extra lessons of phy. simon was nice. to give me extra classes. cux i reallie know nuthing of what we have learned. Kimon was having extra class too. he is much more cheerful these days i shall say. he used to be reallie shy. haaa. well.well.
I am some how back in my exams mood. my appetite is so big. now . i just keep feel like eating and eating esp craving for junk food " dona kebab" with chips , yum. i was so tempted to walk to the kebab van but i am so afraid of putting the extra cal. i guess i will go for morning run if i can stay till 6am. smile. got to do my econs and phy tonight. tired. cannot wait till after exams yipppe.

-cann't stop dreaminx of u-

[[It Will Never Be Back]]__|6:41 AM|

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Wednesday, May 24, 2006

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i had a talk with cand. and i realised that such things i can only open up to cand and linn most of the time. xinyang maybe. cux she not reallie into it. but i do tell her. wells. that's how our characters are. i had my first proper meal today. lunch was in the dinning hall and dinner was at xian. the food was reallie good but for some reasons i feel like throwing up now. i guess my body is just not used to taking in so much food now. cux i have been surviving on 800 cal for weeks and mths. it reallie helps in losing weight but now it had stop. cux i have to rely red bull to stay awake. smile. that why i am eating properly now.

I have got so much to catch up cux i missed rather alot of lessons. for personal reasons, toffel, sick and lazy. so ya. but these i reallie cannot help it. it just happen. my new dutch roommate is not bad. she is abit quiet but sweet. the only problems is that she sleeps reallie early and gets up reallie early so , i guess i will go to dinning hall for breakfast tmr. on thurs i will go gym and do crash dieting heee. i reallie need some of this. maybe sat if i feel that i have time. times fly when i need more of them . well that is life. i hope daddy is alright at least. reallie hope to see him when i go back this time.

-cann't stop dreaminx of u-

[[It Will Never Be Back]]__|7:39 AM|

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Tuesday, May 23, 2006

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I really don't know what can really drive me to study. today i was feeling shit in school and then xiao hui said i did not not very well. I guess i am just over tired by rubbish i shall say. Sam irritated me so much today, i was feeling so low and he chose the television over me can.!!! how evil can he get, and i was so nice to actually walked to the post office to send the phone to him just to make him happy. Samuel Lee Zhi Ming u are not forgiven for that! heard it. u owe me a meal and meal at ritz. ritz maybe dutch. i am quite sure dutch. haha

I don't know if i should go back on the 10 june maybe i will delay a few days cux there are just too many internal assignment to handle. and i cannot cope with all . booked chalet on 19 june. but then only one night, i don't feel like having any gathering for that i just want to use it for relxing with my bros and the family . a day with them. i have not had any holidays with them and i reallie miss staying up late with them. esp my brothers , no matter how much he irritates me, he is so dearly to me . is the blood that flow in us.

Susposed to be mugging but then i ended up talking online for 3 hr.
better start now. =) not intending to sleep

-cann't stop dreaminx of u-

[[It Will Never Be Back]]__|8:28 AM|

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Monday, May 22, 2006

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i decided to use back the blogger cux i feel so stupid today, haix i reallie dunno i am starting to lose my confidence all overagain and i guess i am just gonna lose weight from tmr onwards again i have been relaxing becux i do not reallie want it to affect my results and all but then again, after what actually happen i guess i wld, i dun wish to talk abt it anymore , i walk over my own path, i got a new room mate but the reason is she sleeps so early and i reallie still want to study. hee. hopefully no one from st clares read my this entry cux , yup i kind of miss anna, she was such a good frenx i reallie hope she sort things out and at least contact me. dumb me.

[[It Will Never Be Back]]__|7:19 AM|

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