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i bought a rasa dior bag today. i kind of feel guilty , cux ya. i know it was reallie nice of my mum to send me money , 2 days ago just becux i wanted to go buy something as my birthday present and to reward my hardwork. although i did not get good grades this time. but nx time i will. it kind of ex. but i got some discount. cux i went to bistol hee. i reallie love the bag.. mummy thank you. i love u so much. okie. this shall be my last bag for this yr. ya. i realised tt i just keep on buying and buying. and my family is not like many in my sch.. who has tons of cash and change diff brand of bag everyday. hee.
but ya. i dunno. i got the bag and after talking to my aunt. i feel reallie guilty. for one moment i was. really like shld i or shld i not and all. =) but what is done is done. i will stop buying. i realised that is not reallie worth , is just a brand and u have a few pieces is enough
okay. end of week.... 2nd last week from the easter break.
i realised that i have got tons of things to catch up during this break.
1. i got to pass my driving theroy.2. i got to revise my phy and get 6 nx term test.
3. i want to go to edinburgh again.
4. finalised my business internal assesment.
5. oh study for my SAT.
6. improve my english
yup. of course SAT , driving and improving english is on the top of my list. Hai continued to play with me, now i really cannot tell the diff anymore. and ya. sometime i do enjoy their company but then sometimes is just too much to joke and he don't have to do such an extreme. like today. we were doing reflection and his class was before mine. he wrote on the board he loves me. and basically every1 in the phy class saw. and they started. i don't mind the other class but this class is like. there is alot of pple that i am not close with. and ya.
and ya.. he give me a really confusing things to think and this has been bothering me for days. and i am having bits and pieces to paste together. hee. i think he likes me . but ya. he said he will tell me when his feeling for the person he like is stronger. so yup. and again i also don't reallie want to get into another relation so soon..now is just not the right time. no commitment. when i feel like going to drink with other pple i cld.. and ya. i need time to sort out sam in my mind. things are still hanging there not moving. i really don't know why.
yup.. exams are over. and the weekend was kind of alright
Friday. went to have dinner cux it was chen's bdae. None of them reallie want to club that night. chen wanted to go home to talk to her bf. and yang wanted to watcg cartoon , sabrina and her bf wanted to wtch movie.. lucy and alice were tired . so tt left me n jo who wanted to go for a drink. but then in the end we still went back.
HoWever! we still went out after that. we left the hse abt 9+ then went to new bar to drink. surprisingly i realised beer is not at all bitter for me anymore and i kind of enjoy it. and as usuall we had shots. and i love it. After that we wen tto bubbly bar to smoke sisha. it was strawberry tonight. and went the rest of out sch mate there. i felt so dumb and stupid for just sititing there and smoke. and drink a little. becus he was there and when he came to ask me to go dance why was i so stupid and just stay there haix. and ya Killian and va. i dunno how to spell his name.. i just went to the toilet and when i come out lucy pull me and dance before i cld go. killian and va. locked us in and dance . and he saw and he was just standing there laughing!!! yup tt night i felt kind of horrible and i asked marc something reallie stupid. i wonder how i going to see him in school today.
Sat night was bettter. nellie and her bf came to oxford to visit me n the place and then ya this is the first time tt i went around the universities.then we went to mood to meet the rest. as usual there were lots of pple from our sch there. but then he and his friends cannot get in. it was fun back to mood and the pple there still cld recognised us hee. smile.yup we drank and dance it was really fun.
but on the way back one the bus. ..... gtg continue nxx time
yaya i cann't wait. is like the last paper tmr and yippe.. i have reallie been mugging this time round i know i started reallie late but still. today business and econ was good. :) hee. i hope this can help me pull my marks up :)
yaya i cann't wait. is like the last paper tmr and yippe.. i have reallie been mugging this time round i know i started reallie late but still. today business and econ was good. :) hee. i hope this can help me pull my marks up :)
today is just susposed to be the last day to actually stay up late to revise but i realised tt i lot the drive to study maybe for the past few days i have been reallie overwork and now. i can see that i am just kind of slacking away again i dunno i nv have any inteerest in studying i miss home so back. i picked up a realliy horrible habit. i reallie feel guilty and sorry for pple who love me esp my family i promise i am going to kick off the habit before it gets me :)
-cann't stop dreaminx of u-
Major mugging from now on.!
i reallie hope i can do what i say. Today during phy was the most horrible lesson. we did past papers and i know nothing abt it. Hai was just kept doing questions after questions. how the hell does he know all these. haix. i reallie wish i have a guy's complex mind. okie. been mugging since 9. and now is 1.
i gonna upload
s some pix from Phy lab. a typical Phy lesson
Simon - emma- me
Abraham Malu
Ahmed
Actually . none of them knew i took these pix. hee
After all my brithday was not that bad. hee. yup. at night the girls were sweet. i bought in pizza and then they bought me cake and all. smile reallie nice of them smile. i dun need any presents as long as they celebrate. i guess the cake was the most impt thing tt i had today. i thot i wld not get a cake this yr.
the whole day my feelings were mixed. this was the first time i was reallie feeling today. and ya. i thot this bdae wld be real shit but then again. it was not so yup. after all thx. everyone. it was reallie good. now i got to do wat i told myself to do. as my birthday wish hee. love u
-cann't stop dreaminx of u-
finallly , the day tt i want and dun want to come had finally arrives.. which is my 19th brthday. yup. i dun want this day to come because is 19 and i reallie feel damm old. i wish iw as like 17 and dun have to worry abt everything. and i want to to come is becux is my brithday. i am not as happy as last yr. is like last yr i wished my 18 birthday wld come and all. but ya. i went london today .. i did nto really do much i just accompany temu. and wanted to got to china town but then i did not go i will just go to the chinese super mart tmr. i probably go with temu tmr. i wan to go to bangkok hse hee. the foood will be reallie good. i cannot afford more than 3 pple. cux ya. is reallie freaking ex. if i were to call 3 i got to call 4 .. then 10 .. ya. it will cost me like at least 300 pounds and i dun want tt to happen. i wld rather not have it . and all. ya.
I dun hve a special one this yr. actually there are alot of thing tt have been borthering me these day. and i am trying my best to overcome these things. by myself. but then sometime i just cld not do it on my own. i dunno. i reallie wish i cld moved on like how i did the first time. but i dunno what the same thing to happen to me again. i know if i want i cld. but is not going to be fair to other. cux i realised i cld do tt for the short run but it will not going to help.
Happy birthday mich. i wished someone give me flower too.. but then not as fortunate as u.. haha only the chinese and some girl know my brithday so ya.. i dun think even he rem is my bdae. he is such an ass. haa
finally the oral that i had been dragging for mths was finally finished today. i was realliy relief; my birthday is coming and i am not feeling anything abt it. yup i reallie dunno why. maybe is just becux is 19 and not 18 anymore. i didnot do much rather than going to library almost everyday. but it does not seems to be productive at all. is like . in the library i just spend most of my time idealing n day dreaming. i realised tt i got to lose weight reallie.
things are getting better, i got a room to myself nw. cus i kind of moved upstair . but not reallie. hee. cux i do go back to my room. maybe sometimes i just need sometime alone to just sort things out. sue told me to be gentle with myself these day . ya. but how to when i want to get to LSE and all. smile
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